now i know

i have always felt growin up that i was not really wanted by my family. i was always treated different. there is a huge age gap between me and my sister and my brother who i hate with all my heart.. as i got older. it became more apperant that i got what i wanted from my parents so they wouldnt have to listen or deal with me.. i got married in my late 30's. hada lil boy who was born with a heart defect. when he was born, my in laws came to the hosp with us when we went in for the emergency c section. the next mornin i called around and let people know what was goin on. my parents made no effort to come to the hospital. took em 3 days to show. we didnt know if our son was going to live or not. called my brother to tell him.. he didnt even have the sack to show up at all. but when him and his 2nd wife had my niece and nephew i was the first one there. back in feb i had an affiar. but it was actually the best thing that happened. my wife and i realized we lost eacfh other about 2 years ago.. we have since put it in our past and our bond is stronger than ever.. between me and my wife anyways. i learned alot about myself. im def no angel.. but alot fo crap i did such as how i behaved and treated people is from how i was treated by my family growin up.. i still get alot of E36 M3 from them but i have learned to let it roll off my back.i realized i am really ok.. im not that bad awful nasty person that i was made out to feel like i was.

sorry i know all of you have no idea who i am. but just had to let my fingers do some talking about how i have felt for a long time.. this can be deleted if its no appropriate for the board..

thanks for reading chris barnes

Its cool. We've all turned to the group to blow off some steam.

Same here. It helps sometimes, believe me. Best of luck to you.

Been there, it helps, and you're not the first on this site. Ditto above posts,

It's kind of weird, I am the outsider in my family, similar situation, my parents were done having kids and I showed up. I was an angry young man with no direction nearly all of my life. I found people as an adult that became my family and proceeded to screw up those relationships as well. It was a long rough road until I realized I was being as bad as my family. I met my wife, she gave me direction and I am much happier.

Good luck to you and yours, and remember... berkeley them bitches when you win the Lotto.

The day my family disowned me because I wouldn't come to Christmas dinner when dinner was ham and neither I, my wife or my kids eat ham, was the best day of my life. Just because there's a blood relationship doesn't mean E36 M3 as far as whether somebody really cares about you or the ones you love.