I woke up today. I could stop right there and the thread title would be accurate, but I'm not going to. So bare with me if you choose to and follow along as we venture towards the warm glowing light that doesn't signify our end on this earth, but our enlightenment, and the realization of what makes us whole and complete.
I'm incredibly optimistic today, my energy level is solid. I'm going to get some for of work done. The creative juices are flowing about ideas for the future and not merely living in the now. I'm going to feel accomplished, proud. I may even start up one of the cars that's parked outside and idle it for a bit. It might not seem like a step to some, but it's damn close to driving in my mind.
I've tried to be realistic about expectations, pessimistic even at times, tempered optimistism at best, but the last week has me thinking that I may actually beat this. Regardless of the end result, which honestly doesn't matter, it really doesnt, we all eventually suffer the same outcome, I feel fantastic.
I was fortunate enough to know Stuart Scott. We actually butt heads when we first met, my youthful ignorance and pride for my terps, and team which I was a part of, and his pride for his tarheels, a team that he lived and breathed and that he would've been a part of if not for a freak injury before his freshman year. Stuart was a fighter. He also had a brilliance that often wasn't even realized upon initial interuptation. That's probably what lead us to disagree at first, only to become friends before his untimely passing. One of his points of brilliance was, "whether we live or die doesn't define whether or not cancer beats us, what matters and defines us, how we win, is how we choose to life". He communicated that to those around him, asking others, "how are you living today?". Initially I thought, Stu's come to terms with his realization and is at peace with himself, the terms and hand that he was dealt. But that wasn't it I was wrong and didn't hear what he was trying to say. He was trying to get you to realized that we all have an end to our own lives and nobody knows when that is for themselves, so live yours to the fullest. Be fulfilled, be enlightened, love, be complete and don't ever hold back how your feel or temper your passion. As it doesn't matter whether you have cancer, ALS or any other terminal illness or are in perfect body and health, at some point our time will come and you don't want to live feeling that you ever shorted yourself on experiencing and living life.
Sometimes people are dealt a pretty E36M3 hand in life, work, their hobbies, or relationships. Sometimes what matters most isn't the end outcome of the journey but the enjoyment that you manage to find during it, however remote, strange or obscure it may be. The precievreance of joy is strange, wonderful and powerful thing if you allow yourself to find it.
With that I want to purpose a new award for within competition. It lends itself to motorsports competition well and even the 2xxx challenge (perhaps best of all the challenge). The award is to be given to the person or team who percerverded through the greatest setbacks and toughest odds with the brightest demeanor, best outlook and greatest enjoyment. We choose to engage in motorsports for the challenge, nobody should delusional enough to think that there's any glory in piecing together a sub 2500 crap wagon, no matter how capable it is. I don't know what the award should be called and whether a donation to a charity in the winners name and behalf of a sponsor and or GRM should be part of it, along with some forms of trophy. (I'll let you all debate those terms) but I don't think that it's important and that there's no better way to celebrate the so aptly named challenge, community that is GRM and spirit of motorsports.
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